I write this with my binder full of math in my lap.  Yes, I’m just taking a teensy break from my math, honest.  I’m nearing the end of the first unit, which means the first huge test on everything covered so far.  But so far I seem to be getting most stuff when I check the answer key afterwards, so that’s promising.  But I will definitely be studying anyway

Lately I’ve been feeling inspired,  Haha, haven’t felt that way for a loong time.  It’s an overwhelming but great feeling.  I just mean feeling inspired with everything, feeling hopeful about the future.  It not too far off I will be going away to college, which is crazy when I think about it!  It seems just yesterday (really) that I was very , very young..  Funny how that works, isn’t it?  It’s also great because I’m starting to just know what I want to do.  I didn’t know it would come to me just as so, but it seems to be.  What is it you wonder.. I’ll write a post detailing that in the near future.

I think I’ve always been the opposite of a “live life in the moment” person.  I don’t know if that’s “bad” or just another viewpoint, but I love to look to the future and plan, or dream about it.  So maybe I’m missing out on enjoying the moment, but I’m excited for the future.  Which is really uplifting. I’m really determined to take ownership of my future.  Sometimes it really is frustrating and you feel like you have no control in your life, I’d say one of the worst feelings ever is feeling helpless.  I’ve felt that way a lot over the years growing up, sometimes justified, other times not.  I do believe that you do decide your life, no matter what circumstances may hinder that.   It’s just so easy to fall in a rut and become bitter.  I’m talking on a very general level.  I’m trying not to do that anymore.

Yeah, I’m rambling.  But what’s so wrong with that?! So, before I get distracted with some other project, Back to the math!