With mother’s day just past, what is essentially a commercial thing in my opinion doesn’t do all that mothers do justice.

Mom, I don’t thank you enough for all that you have done for me.  You have not only taken care of me, supported me and loved me unconditionally, but you are my best and closest friend.  You have always been so selfless and giving, and while I often take this for granted I want you to know I am forever greatful and in awe of your kindness.  Really I aspire to be the kind of person you are, though it leaves big shoes to fill.

I know you want the best for me, and I truly want the best for you.  You do so much and ask for nothing in return, you deserve the world.  Things haven’t always been easy, but I know that we are a great team and will always stick together.  I love you so much.

XOXO <3

Emma

Thinking about it last night, I realized anyone who happens to come across this blog and read won’t have the faintest clue what I’m talking about when I talk about how I’m leaving soon to go back to BC.  I don’t know, I’m always a little hesitant and paranoid about telling too much about my life on here, for anyone in the world to read.

But basically, in a nutshell,  I was born and spent the better part of my childhood in Ontario.  When I was eight years old, my nuclear family (which is only myself, my mother and father) moved to British Columbia.   That was many years ago, but last Fall, me and my mother came back to Ontario, for an extended visit with my maternal grandparents, who are obviously getting on in age.  Of course it’s hard to just leave the life you’ve known for many years on the west coast without ever looking back, but at the same time it’s hard to leave behind all your family on the other side of the country.  So we decided to come back for about a year.  It was supposed to be just for a year, then we return to BC, but now my mother wants to return to Ontario for longer.  So we’re returning to BC for the summer, to tie up loose ends I guess, and in the Fall sometime return to Ontario again with my father.

Sound complicated?  Yeah, it is.  I was happy to visit my grandparents who I love and missed out on a lot of time with after I moved to BC, except on brief visits.  At the same time I don’t know if I want to leave my life in BC where I’ve spent my entire teenage years, done stupid shit, eventually grown up and grown accustomed to the west coast lifestyle.

Yup, that’s it folks.  It’s an issue I’ll probably be struggle with for a while, I don’t want to seem selfish and say I want to live in BC where it’s more fun and I’m more comfortable but if that’s the way I feel some days why deny it?  It’s a hard thing to balance, and hopefully I can bring some light to whatever happens through writing here.

I feel like I’m being pulled in 20 different directions which is funny because all I have on my plate right now is the upcoming science exam (on Friday) and my art course.  Last year I had five exams in a row with only a week to study for all of them, and I’m overwhelmed with this I’m not even going to deal with Math until science is out of the way.

I don’t know what the @*&# is up with my domain.  Make that my non-existent domain.  I hate to say it but if you want something you just gotta pay for it, or you pay in other ways..that’s a guarantee.  Yeah, I didn’t technically pay money, it’s a long story but I’ll just say I’m not too happy with this site. I’ll happily be a nagging bitch if I don’t get my domain soon

I’ve really been meaning to paint but I just can’t seem to get to it.  Last week or so I bought some canvas to paint on so I’ve been really wanting to get started. I love painting on canvas, I don’t know why but I do.  I like the texture of it I think, go figure.

I should really buckle down and do stuff.  I only have the rest of today and tomorrow to cram as much info into my brain for science, which is overwhelming when it’s involving four very different parts (biology, chem, physics and earth sci).  Oh yeah, I also have to majorly fix my effed ipod.  I need new songs desperately, and I have to replace some others that decided to not work.  I’ve also been putting off transferring my millions of pictures onto a flash drive, I just hate that task so damn much, soo monotonous.  But I want my hard drive freed up by the time I leave to go to back to BC next month, and an 8 megapixel picture x around 400 is a killer >.<

Yesterday I went on a walk down by the water with my lovely mum.  It was a pretty nice day, not particularly warm but sunny.  It was nice.  I went a little overboard taking pictures of ducks, but they were just so cute.  I’ll probably upload some to flickr in a bit.

I’ve recently gotten some nice summer things, including shoes.  Being the typical female I am, I want to share them here.  Which I will soon!