Wow, I have no knowledge of why, but I feel awful today.  Ever since I woke up I’ve had a nagging headache that hasn’t subsided even after Advil.  Also my head is stuffed up.  I’m not sure if this is a cold or what.  Or maybe allergies?  Whatever it is, it’s not very fun.

While being under the weather, today I tried to put a dent in my huge workload that is school.  I understand lots of people have just as much to do as me, but I’m not so good at managing it.  I’m not much of a procrastinator but I do get overwhelmed with all I have to do which makes it harder to focus.  I did a lot done today despite that and I’ll try to keep plugging away bit by bit every day.

Hm, right now it’s getting pretty late and I still feel very achy so I’m going to call it a night very soon.  I wasted some precious time this evening browsing the applications in the App store.  I don’t know how Apple does it, but they manage to continually profit even after suckers like myself have purchased their overpriced iPods.  It’s ingenious, really.  I have found lots of great free apps but I’m very tempted to buy a few that do cost money.  I need to resist the urge!

Off to bed now.  Good night/morning everyone!

As lame as this makes me sound, I’m sporting a headache, and majorly sore feet from working today.  Oh the joy of working early in the morning for almost a full day.  Oh well, it’s money right! Speaking of money, with that I’m thinking of getting an iPod Touch soon.. I’m kind of hesitant to because I do have an iPod (2nd gen nano, almost full) but I really want the Wifi, though I wonder how often you can actually find an accessible network? Hmmm.. if anyone owns one please share your thoughts on it with me.

So all I have done today is get up early, work for the whole day, and come home and crash.  I am really not a morning person, and I feel beat for the whole day when I do get up early.  That’s basically all I’m doing the next few days to, is working, with the exception of a couple days off.  So be it.. I will find the time to blog and that brings me to .. this Friday’s Fashion Find Friday!!

I know you’re excited.. boy do I have a treat for you.  I think I’m going to feature two different fashion finds this Friday, because I couldn’t choose just one.  Without revealing too much, one fashion find is apparel and the other is beauty related.  So stay tuned.  Speaking of fashion, would you get a load of these French maid costumes!

Okay, enough rambles for today. I’m going to go have a hot bath and then straight to bed. That’s how tired I am!

Ugh, this is depressing.  I didn’t wanna have to go there, but it seems I am in a rut.

I have a perfectly good camera that takes very good quality pictures, and yet, recently I can’t take a good picture for shit.  I owned a 6 year old, 4 megapixel camera for as many years before I received my new one last Christmas, and I managed to take some pretty kickass pictures, If I do say so myself.  This is just frustrating, I feel like I am totally useless creatively.

I also really want to paint, but I left all my canvas and good paints in Ontario.  And it wouldn’t make sense to buy a whole bunch of other stuff here in BC, because I won’t be able to lug it back to Ontario with me, for lack of packing space.

I need some some inspiration badly, and make it quick.

I was laying awake in bed thinking a couple nights ago (couldn’t sleep, heh) and for some reason I started wondering why some parents try to mold their children so much they don’t have a chance to just be themselves.  When I was in Grade 4, my dad though it would be a swell idea to have me start piano lessons.  Being only 9, I didn’t have much say in the matter.  He’s really into music but his career was computer programming and dare I say living vicariously through me? (I really hope my dad doesn’t somehow accidentally find this site, because of course he knows my first and middle name.)  Piano was really more his interest than mine.

Needless to say I absolutely hated it, and would actually cry all the way home from every lesson in the car.  I don’t have a real “explanation” for that, the teacher was not particularly mean or cruel or doing anything other than she was supposed to do - teach piano.  But I felt so, so out of place and so frustrated I despised it.  I also think I was putting a lot of undue pressure on myself for whatever reason, so when I failed to succeed at something immediately I was angry at myself.  Who knows the psychology really of a 9 year old. I remember once actually tearing up a little during the lesson, which stirred things up and my teacher was concerned as to why I was upset.  One thing led to the next and I eventually stopped taking piano lessons about half a year after I started.

Which was so relieving!  My parents played the “you’ve-let-me-down” card for a while but it eventually passed like most things do.  Looking back on the experience, piano just isn’t something I was, or am interested in and I think inducing feelings of guilt or scorn just because I didn’t want to do what was I was “supposed” to do, is just plain wrong.  I really do believe that parents shouldn’t force their children into something they’re just not interested in, or be annoyed or mad at them for that.  Kids find their niche eventually, whether it’s something the parents want or not.  And you really should be able to love what you love and not like what you don’t like.
And that’s the story and my 2 cents. 

I’m not cut out for a lot of things, but right now I’m referring to the weather.  The twitter says it all!  About the hottest it can go before I launch into an It’s Too Hot™ campaign is 20°C.   Thank god I won’t be in Ontario for the hottest part of the Summer, but it still horrifies me to think it’s this hot in mid April..

So I took the science exam.  I’m both glad it’s other with and at the same time want to do it over again.  For one, I guess I majorly understudied for the Earth science part, because I barely knew it. Heh. I thought I had all the bases covered. :urgh:

The next thing that went wrong was the librarian cut me off at 2 hours.  And he wasn’t pleasant about it. That’s not fair because, yes, the exams are scheduled as 2 hours, but you are given an extra hour if you need it.  That’s 3 hours, bastard.  Yet it didn’t occur to my passive, glazed over self * that I did in fact have an extra hour, until I hit submit, gathered my stuff and went downstairs to the main floor.   Despite my failure to realize this, the guy was wrong regardless.  Honestly, with an exception of a rare few, my experience with librarians have been unpleasant.  Of all the librarians I’ve come across, I’ve maybe met one that was kind.  I’ve encountered many, however, that either have no personality, are in a permanent bad mood or barely seem to breathe they’re so unresponsive.  And usually it’s all of the above.  Of course this is a stereotype, that has definitely been proved true in lots of cases, but not all.  But this is my personal experience and this guy that very well might’ve fucked over my exam is another strike in favour of that theory.

So all in all, I’m not sure how well I did.  I don’t know how this works but, the good news is my final mark in the coursework part of Science was 97%, which counts for 80% of the final grade.  If the final exam counts for 20%. and I got let’s just say 50% on that, what would be my overall percentage grade? Anyone?

EDIT: Figured that out, that was obvious.

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